so close

I'm so close to losing hope;
disenchanted, defiant, 
madness overwhelms my broken heart

I'm so close to slitting my arms;
the desire to bruise myself 
is slowly seeping through my thoughts

I'm so close to madness,
I'm so close.

I could feel the heavy cloud
circling on top of me
I'm so close to asphyxiation
so close to losing my breath
so close.

Farewell, past memories and anxious nights
for in death and pain we shall unite again.