so far it's alright

I was busy being altruistic
I ignored my own heart and 
cared for other people too much
in the end I was hurting
but so far it's alright.

I lived in such a delusional life
I saw what's good in everyone
but I forgot, people are not that kind
some are cruel, some will hurt you
and to think that I will get hurt this bad
is something I am not prepared for
but so far it's alright.

Grief smote me, pain shot me
I thought about how torn I am now
nothing seemed to be fine
everything was a mess
I couldn't say it anymore
because so far, it's not alright.

So devastated. So jaded. So broken.
But so far it's alright.